It is almost 4:30 pm, and I am still sitting. I have read two newspapers, have read on the internet, and had a sandwich for lunch and graham crackers for a snack. Yes, it was lazy of me. I deserve it today.
For about four nights I have not gotten enough sleep and supplemented that with naps. Friday night, I went to bed at 1 am and slept well until 5:45, lay trying to go back to sleep until about 6:30, got up and went to the living room. I am very quiet and never disturb Tommy. Around 8:30 I went back to bed, went to sleep immediately and woke at 12:30 pm. So, I slept 9 hours and felt wonderful.
No, I did not get things done while I felt well. I was luxuriating in feeling well. That may seem silly. But, since I rarely feel rested, it has been nice to feel normal.
Now, there are things to do--Me--wash hair; with Tommy--empty dishwasher, load dishwasher; Tommy alone--water flowers, but milk for himself. Of course, I will make dinner using the rest of the cooked ground beef, corn on cob, slaw.
Oops! My clothes need to be washed and dried by Tommy before we do anything. Well, they need to go into the washer first thing. I cannot believe it is now 5 pm and this is just being done. We both forgot. Oh well.
Tommy said when he went to get the mail that three children were lying on their beach towels on the driveway next door. A little girl about 8 came over and dragged our garbage can back to where it goes. She seems so nice. Those kids next door are gems. I am shocked they are all so quiet with seven people, seven dogs, and at least three or four extra people. The dogs still bark all the time, especially around 6 and 8 am!
So, it is get the washing started, start dinner and go buy milk.
Do you ever feel so good that you hate to do anything and make yourself inordinately tired once again? Make no mistake--my back still hurts and so does my knee. But, I have felt not achy at all and not tired, rested.
Currently I am sleeping on the sofa as John is taking his journey to leave this world. I am so emotionally drained that I am sleeping quite well. I also take a couple of short naps throughout the day. While he was in the hospital I actually slept really well and felt quite rested for the first time in several years.
ReplyDeleteHe has been pretty much unconscious since Sunday afternoon. I keep the room dimly lit, use some essential oils in the diffuser and sometimes softly play music. I sit here with him all day and night,
He seems comfortable. I do give him pain meds every 4 hours. It is my goal to keep him calm, and pain free as his body shuts it's self down. Natural death takes longer than you think it will.
You wrote about being behind in reading the newspapers. Magazines are my problem. I am a month or more behind in about 5 or 6 magazines. I am trying to work my way through them as I am sitting with John.
The majority of the magazines I subscribe to are food related. I am most likely never going to make a tenth of the recipes but I really do enjoy reading the recipes and learn about unfamiliar dishes and techniques. Now that I won't be cooking for John my chances of actually trying out these magazines is even slim.
Janet,
DeleteI just tried to email you several times on different accounts to ask you about John. I am so sorry he is dying, sorry you are going through this journey with him. Is there not respite through hospice?
When I had lots of magazines I saved for the recipes, I finally went through them all and cut the recipes I wanted. The stack was no longer and the volume of paper sitting around was greatly reduced. Maybe you could do that.
How about cooking the recipes for yourself and having leftovers for a few days or invite a friend over when you cook.
I don't subscribe to magazines anymore. I would like some, but I don't.
Let me know when I can call. I did not try again since I did not know what you were doing.
Janet, I am so sorry your husband is leaving this world. Grace and peace to him and to yourself as he transitions to eternity.
DeleteLinda A few years back I decided that as I read a magazine and saw a recipe that interested me that I would just tear the page out. Every few months I would go through the stack of torn out pages and either file or discard them. Interestingly enough I found that I tore out the same sort of recipes again and again.
DeleteI am not good to check my email every day. My email address is my first and last names @Gmail.com
Janet,
DeleteThat is a lot easier to tear a recipe out as you go than save a stack of magazines and have to go through a stack of magazines. UGH! I did tear out the same sort of recipe, too. I will email you.
Glad you had a restful day. Those are bliss!
ReplyDeleteCheryl, I have so few days like that, and I cherish them.
DeleteWhen I feel good i like to get things done as much as possible. As far as magazines we only do a few good one (including Readers Digest and some men stuff for hubby like boating and woodwork stuff). I let all mine expire. However I cant seem to get Good Housekeeping to stop. In 2017 I renewed it and then decided to not renew it again. i even cut the label out and taped it inside the cupboard door so I knew when it should stop but it wont stop coming, I am STILL getting it and dont read it anymore, just recycle. I know it is an ok mag but it just keeps coming
ReplyDeleteAnn,
DeleteI had a magazine that jus kept coming and they kept charging me. When I finally, repeatedly complained, they quit charging me and still sent it. When I am through with a magazine, I have a friend who will not put magazines in the trash, either. She finds someone else to read it. We keep passing them around.
I have lazed about all weekend in preparation for my surgery. I have been so comfortable, I have not wanted to do anything to disrupt that. I will be in a lot of pain come Thursday morning, so I'm enjoying my pain free life while I can.
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Breenlantern,
DeleteNow is the time to take it easy and be good to yourself. Hopefully, Thursday will be a better day even if you are in pain. Good luck!