When things started shutting down, I was sad for the lunches and dinners and friends I would not get to see. I was sort of at wit's end for two weeks when I thought about where I could not go. In actuality, I was only bummed out at the time an event would happen and not on other days or times.
Then, that all went away. It vanished. I have not grieved for anything I have missed or lost. And, thankfully, I know of no one personally who has died of Covid19.
I am not suffering like some bloggers are. I am not missing things like people everywhere are missing things.
At the same time I am very concerned for the fate of other's lives, my life, my children's and grandchildren's, and Tommy's, and the fate of our country with our President's decisions. The deaths in our country, the old and young who die are sad and make me sad.
But, I am not climbing the walls and suffering for contact with others. I just made up my mind it is the way it is and I cannot make it more than it is--temporary disruption. And, I know nothing will ever be the same. EVER. We will change, too.
I am not sad, depressed, or antsy.
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Since Linda and I have been sticking close to home for the past decade or so, our lives have hardly changed at all due to the lockdown.
ReplyDeleteI have not been in a store or shop for months, and I do not miss it one little bit.
Coming from a family that was not very demonstrative, I am very comfortable with social distancing, too. We have not had unannounced visitors since March, and I don't mind. It always gives my heart a jump.
Happy to hear you are taking things in stride.
Gregg,
DeleteSince my back hurts so, my life is limited, so not much has been happening with me either for the last few years. I do go grocery shopping but do not linger. I really do not like unannounced company! Anger and impatience are not options for me, so I might as well take it in stride. Thanks for your feelings on our confinement.
You have adjusted well, I think I have too. i think we are probably more resilient than some and also have been used to restraints on our lives.
ReplyDeleteI'm happy for you, better to be happy with it than to spend months resisting
kylie,
DeleteI want most of all not to die!!! Sooo, none of the conditions seem like bad restraints.
Good for you. I've interviewed dozens of people who tell me covid19 hasn't really effected them. Their lifestyles are not upset. Other than being careful out of doors things are about the same.
ReplyDeleteUrspo,
DeleteIt is good to hear from you and get the perspective of your patients.
What saddened me most about the lockdown was not being able to be with our children or grandchildren, but things took a turn for the better around Memorial Day and now the restraints on socializing seem to have lessened. I do wear a mask when I go grocery shopping, but we have decided not to go back to church just yet. I don't trust my fellow enthusiastic hugging-loving Christian friends to keep their distance, and our pastor, bless his heart, wants deep down to throw all caution to the winds and go back to the way things were before, although he does say all the right things in his public pronouncements.
ReplyDeleteJust as things were easing up, I was told by two different eye specialists that I should stop driving because of my poor vision even with corrective lenses, and that is a bit scary. It seems more of a permanent lifestyle change than any three-month pandemic-caused sheltering-in-place could cuase.
And no, I don't want to die either, not just yet. I'm with you on that.
rhymes,
DeleteWell, I live so far from mine that this has not affected any visiting. The Christians who would hug believe God will protect them! and keep hugging.
Not driving is rather long term. That would scare me too. Nope wife can drive.
Well, no, my wife gave up driving about four years ago. She is a little older than me, will be 85 in about a month. So our car is just sitting in the garage at the moment and I'm having to rely on family and friends for EVERYTHING. We live in the county, 4 miles from one shopping area and 5 miles from another. Too far to walk. I down't own a bicycle and in fact never learned to ride a bicycle. Roller skates are out (I'm being ridiculous now). Family is willing, but they all work and have jobs. One son is 12 miles away and the other is about 30. In metro Atlanta you can just about double what you think the drive time would be, so I really don't want to have to inconvenience them more than is absolutely necessary. My daughter, as you know, lives in east central Alabama, might as well be another country now.
Deleterhymes,
DeleteThat is a long way from things! I suppose you keep a running list for when you need something. You can have meds mailed. That would help. Atlanta is a world away for doing chores for you. I hope you get something figured out that works on everyone.
I like your positive post. Doing ok here too but do worry. I do the grocery shopping and we stay masked in stores. I had a stranger cough in my direction in Walmart a month ago so glad I was wearing one.
ReplyDeleteAnn,
DeleteI did not write it to be positive in the midst of sadness. It is just that I am not sad and am worried but cautious.
You have a great attitude about it. I try to have a good attitude, although sometimes I do get down about it.
ReplyDeleteBelinda,
DeleteThose who are having problems are not necessarily demonstrating a bad attitude. So, I don't want anyone to think I am being so "good" about all these problems. The only thing that gets me down is when I see evidence that people are not taking this seriously.
That is good it hasn't had a big effect on your life. Me either. We are homebodies anyway, so other than the shortage of things I normally buy, it wasn't really any change for us.
ReplyDeleteOne,
DeleteNot only has it not had a big effect on my life, it has not had an effect on my internal dialogues. The lack of masks and gloves is the only thing that is bothering me. The rest I have found.
You are right-we can't change. I think if I didn't have work though, I would be just a total television binge watcher. I am not motivated with too much downtime to tackle project after project by myself. I greatly miss how life was-t he commute I used to hate on bad weather days, I miss now as it was my transition time. But, overall things are fine for us
ReplyDeleteSAM,
DeleteI would not be a binge watcher, but I might get things done. Commutes were rough on me! But, I understand.
I went to see my grandson last night. He graduated from high school and College with an AA degree and enlisted in the army and got engaged. Him and his brother's girlfriend had a joint gathering. Social distancing was there, I wore my mask so I could hug him and his brothers and my daughter. I don't go much to anything as I struggle in crowds to begin with. I no longer miss going to the store which is saving us money. I think I could easily become a hermit
ReplyDeleteChef,
DeleteHow nice that you could hug him. He deserves a congratulations. Stores hold little appeal to me lately. I think I am a smidgen shy of being a hermit.